sooo........????

[anthonyno2]

sorry i was so harsh with my words and so demanding with my work. if you haven't seen it by now i have anger problems. i mean really bad. i break things punch my self and i cant express them daily so they bottle up inside and come out in large bursts or small horrible ones. i dont really know how to control it and it gets worst everyday. i hate it when i take it out on other people and seeing professionals for help is out of the question. i cant bring myself to explain what goes on in my head to someone. ive tried and i just end up getting into more trouble.im not sure how you europeans deal with this problem but me as an american. am told to express your self when you are fustrated but i have not done that and instead keep it inside untill the bottle becomes to full and a little spills out every now and then. wether it is video games or real life i cant control it at all. i have 2 ps3 and 5 remotes. all of the remotes are broken and one of my ps3s is almost near broken. i looked online to try and find ways to help and most just say to pray and ask god. well i kinda straid from god./( i am a christain or so i tried to be) i dont rweally know what i am. i only pray when i want or need something or am scared. i used to go to church but have stopped after i felt that they were judging me. i have done bad things in my past that i am ashamed of. i am only 17 and have been kicked out of 4 schools . i have been to 4 highschools 3 middle schools and 3 elemntarys. i am not a bad kid and one of the nicest people you can ever find. but i let the influence of people blind me. i have always been the one to try and fit in but it always ends up that i am always in trouble. sometimes i think i am to smart for my own good. i try to use logic in all of my thinking even if i have no knowledge of a topic. people say think outside the box but i say no. the box is there for a reason so use it and fuck what they say. why not use the box if the box is given to you to help you right? and if the box has no solution or you cant just figure out the problem just say fuck it and create a new shape such as a circle with endless possibilities i dont know .. i got mad today and threw my remote on the floor and broke it some more.i just really dont know what to do and i will not go to a shrink. i really dont know why i am writing this either. i guess im just bored....................

[Ivan The Destroyer]

its okay im not one to judge, i used to be a bit of an angry kid too but then i just kinda realised that everything in life are small things, the only important thing is that youre alive, sometimes you just gotta relax and enjoy the ride. you cant eontrol what people do and make them do what you want to do so you just gotta let it go.

[Nemez]

i think fps games arent really good for anger problems. Even calm people discoveres a new side of himself when playing first person shooters. Its sometimes so nerve breaking that it breaks my brain. Tho i bet ivan doesnt know what im talking about, because he always plays good ;D Btw your not the number one pad brokerer in dms, there is an other.

[aksur]

yeah, im heavy user what comes about pads... i dont even remember how many ive bought...maybe 7..

now ive tryed to settle down, its just a game like Dake use to say, but god it makes me angry if i cant manage at all... some of u may remember my 0/14 or something like that match and that was end of my last pad then. Of course was weekend and i didnt get new pad then. Now i try to be breaking any.

[da-N-ks]

i can only say what ivan said... dont trust other ppl that fast or care about their opinion and just be who u r ... when u hav a problem wit something say it right then and dont let one bad thing add to the other one and get even more angry be happy about life and be happy about everything small that is good

[Nemez]

aksur... I remember, you broke your 150€ headset also at that same situation. You said afterwards that if you had killed even one guy, then it would been ok, but zero kills was apperantly too much to bare.
sometimes that one kill can really save money

[maiske]

Dec 14, 2011 11:16:33 GMT da-N-ks said:

be happy about life and be happy about everything small that is good

U mean like my penis?? wtf Dake?!?

Seriously though. Anthony, it takes a lot of courage to admit something like that. I respect your honesty. Admitting and acknowledning your problems is the first step to change things for the better. We all got smaller or bigger "demons" living inside of us, that we have to deal with daily. I can't really relate to your problem personally or give u any useful advice in the matter, cuz Im constanlty on heavy meds, making me kinda numb to feelings such you go through, but I can understand your frustration and misery. Talking openly about how u feel and what you're going through is only a good thing, as I see it, u don't have to be ashamed of these troublesome things, they don't make u a bad person. You learn from hardships and struggles in life, and hopefully u can turn the events to your favor, helping u to grow stronger as a person.

[da-N-ks]

oh i didnt read this until now... just LOL is my answer

[dmsfoxie]

hmm haven't noticed this thread too, but now I kinda understand you better man
and I'm sorry if I have provoked ya or done something to make it worse...

[da-N-ks]

i smell PEACE in here again yeaha!

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